If not an Economist

I just submitted the last assignment after I attended the last class for my degree. I used a lot of last(s) lately because my time in the UK is almost up. Well, not really almost because I still have my final exam and a convocation to attend. I already said yes to a job offer and I applied for a postgraduate course in Malaysia. Just in case you are wondering what am I pursuing, I'm still gonna read Economics. I browsed some possible courses many times but still found my way back to this field.

But, do I really want to become an Economist? My answer is still yes, even there is this 6 years old girl inside me, whose ambition keeps changing subject to the movies she watches. But my boyfriend persistently gets me back on track so that I set my mind on one ambition at a time. He lectures me a lot on the importance of being decisive and reminds me that I only have 24 hours a day. Don't try to do everything at the same time. Do one thing and be really good at it. Honestly these pieces of advice never really registered in my head. I remember it just because he sounds really charismatic when we do career talk *giggles*

The main question here is, if not an economist, then what would I be?

Another reason why I can't have a fixed decision is that of this question. So I came out with a few possible career choices. I have to note that these career choices are not my plan B, C, and D. They are my opportunity costs (an Economic term which means something you forgo as an expense to something you chose)

Graphic Designer
It doesn't sound natural for an Economics student to be a graphic designer because:

  1. Economics graduates top the highest paid list and graphic designing graduates top the lowest paid rank
  2. Economics is a quantitative course, therefore, this field needs left-brained people and vice versa for graphic designing
For these two reasons, I rejected an offer to study graphic designing and went to Economics instead. It is not that I don't like Economics, but my love towards graphic designing has never ceased since I first learned Adobe Photoshop when I was 13. At that time my family didn't have a computer at home, so to learn Ps, I walked to public library almost every day. I just started to draw again recently after a long hiatus of 5 years of not doing anything related to art.

I thought of taking another degree in arts, but my boyfriend advised me to do self-study and freelance instead. Okay, I take this piece of wise words very seriously because he is an Architecture student, he must know art field better than me

It is no wonder why I have been a blogger for the past decade. Writing and thinking are not two different processes for me. It's a mean to its end.

Which is why I am writing this book. To think. To understand. It just happens to be the way I'm made. I have to write things down to feel I fully comprehend them - Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood 

This is the reason why I am mostly active on Twitter than any other social media. It is because thoughts in my brain are like water in a reservoir. I need a system or else it will be flooded out. But then, if I love writing so much, why never have I tried to publish a book? I must blame my inferiority complex for this. My insecurity has always been my knowledge. Am I good enough to write about this? Is this right? Or is it wrong?

I spoke to my teacher about my ambition to be a writer and to publish a book. Then she said

Write a book and get it translated

It is no wonder why she is the teacher and I am the student. It is because she sees further and better than me. At first, my goal was to just write something and get it published, but I upgraded my aim ever since. To write a book which gets translated into foreign languages

If I really need a reason to regret my decision of taking Economics, this is it. I always wonder from time to time, will I do better if I take a law degree instead? I learnt tort and contract in my second year, and I loved the subject so much that my regret became stronger.

I was battling between law and Economics after SPM because I got two offers, each for each course. But again, considering the job market and salaries, I went for Economics because I need money more than anything. To an extent, it is true that the job market creates the labour, not the other way around.

In the UK, it is possible to practice law without a law degree. But not the case in Malaysia. I have some considerations to go for another degree instead of postgraduate. But law degree in Malaysia must be done in full-time and I need to jump into career world as soon as possible to gain real-life experience. I can't stay in classroom forever unless I become a teacher/professor, which is far from my liking.

So these three professions are the opportunity costs to Economics degree. Just like I said from the beginning, I can't have a fixed decision yet. And the only thing I can do right now is to actually become an employee and discover my working style, then I will know what I want to be - another advice from my boyfriend cause he is my career consultant (due to our age difference lol)

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